Heavy by Kiese Laymon is such a unique book from such a unique voice. Heavy is a memoir but addressed as if Laymon is speaking to his mother and telling her his story. His true story. Laymon and his mom have a complicated relationship. At times loving, at times using and abusing, at times supportive and at other times the exact opposite of supportive. Laymon explores his relationship with his mother in this book but he also addresses his grandmother and more importantly himself. Laymon explores his complicated relationship with his body. He alternates between obesity as a child to anorexia as a man. He both loves and hates his body. Life is complicated for a young black male growing up in Mississippi. Heavy seeks to unravel all of the feelings about the pains in his life but most importantly address the pain between him and his mother.
At one point in the book, Laymon’s grandmother tells him that through the stories she tells her children and grandchildren, she is just trying to ‘put them where I’ve been’. In Heavy, Laymon is trying to put us all where he has been. He writes with such unapologetic honesty that at times it actually hurts to read his words. His vivid memory of a life filled with so much pain is examined here and left for the reader to decide how they should feel about it. Near the end of the book, he says that he wanted to write a lie and you wanted to read a lie. He uses the word ‘you’ just as he has throughout the book when he is addressing his mother but this time it feels like the ‘you’ in the sentence is addressed to all of us. Laymon’s unwillingness to write what we would all like to hear or believe is what makes his writing so painful at times but it is also the ingredient that makes his writing so to the point and authentic.
For several years now I have admired Laymon’s writing. It is reminiscent of Richard Wright. I waited a long time for this book to come out and look forward to reading more of Laymon’s work in the future. If you want a cozy read, step away from this book quickly. You won’t find cozy or comfortable within these pages. But if you want to read a brilliant wordsmith who is willing to lay bare his heart for the world to read about with unflinching honesty, please read this memoir.
Thank you to the publisher and to NetGalley for allowing me to read an advanced copy of this memoir.
Five out of five stars.